jiahui's blog is dead. the last time i asked her, she said she's too lazy to update. her extent of laziness amazes me. however, i think i saw a very suspicious tag on her tagboard. it's from "jack"- jackson? hahaha. but the tag is really mushy. go take a look. will jackson ever type sth like that? well, love conquers all. hahaha. erm i thought THE EXORCIST would be like hell scary. so we borrowed it. my oh my. scary my foot. we were almost bored to death(haha) and at the supposedly "scary" parts, we were laughing like mad. lol. i think it was siyang who told me the movie was scary. thanks ah mr phua siyang. such a disappointment can. the girl was quite freaky though. she gives me the chills.

as i watched the setting sun;
i wondered if i'm the only one.

after the "scary" movie the three of us(yupp, us three again, limited social circle hahaha) had a feast at CARTEL! havent had good food in a loooong while. have been torturing myself with the kopitiam food(ugh) and NY canteen food(double ugh). the kopitiam has served its purpose as nanyang's second canteen, cos its filled with truckloads of hungry brown beasts each day. i mean, seriously la, the canteen food is not meant for humans to eat. whats worse is that SOUPY place is closed for the time being. the gigantic fishballs. hoped to see xinni at gardens cartel, but no such luck. hahaha.

arrived at school today at seven. SEVEN! when trng starts at eight. like o.o but the smart me went to 7-11 to buy a chocolate donut. muahaha. and then i made myself comfy and watched the teachers have their 2.4 run. woohoo. tommy lee, of course led the way, and mark lim was close behind. ballack heng wasnt that bad either. i saw seq running too. almost laughed out loud can. he runs in a wierd way. and mr mao, haiyo, run slower than lin zong yan lehh. disgrace. hahaha. i know i shouldnt be laughing at teachers, but , ah. it's okay to do so once in a while.

dang trng was tiring today. is the haze returning? pfffttt. i think i am addicted to the kopitiam XIAO HUO GUO(mini steamboat) it's really good. i just found out that the holidays have alr started. dammit. it doesnt feel like holidays at all can. no festive mood. all because of stupid PW. will it ever end? it's damn time consuming and pointless la. just remove it from our education system! muahaha.


why does justina look so sad?
she's hungry.
haha!
god when she sees this she'll kill me.

tmr's halloween. trick or treat?

everything has been happening too fast for me to handle. that tragic day, it rained. perhaps someone up there knew how upset all of us were. it hurts to see people crying. esp people you care for. yongjin and kelvin (although i know you guys prob wont be reading this), take care okay? although you shrug it off and pretend that you're okay, vowing to get into the honour roll next yr. i looked at sheri, and we were at a loss for words. kelvin, my pri sch fren until now. i cannot accept it. all the way from pri 3 until now, you've been in the same school, sometimes same class as me. why does life have to make a fool out of all of us? please, make me understand.
before i could recover, i was dealt another blow. my worst nightmare came true. i saw keli crying, and then everyone started crying. i think i scared quite a number of people when i ran into the loo with my tear-streaked face. dearest keli and jinyu, dont be scared. we are here for you. regardless of what has happened, stay strong okay? :)

life goes on.
so tell me, why am i still not letting go?
it is possible to appeal for promotion right?
right?

i'm SO in the mood for BEN&JERRYS right now.

one word- shagged.
we were all gobbling down KPT food like crazy. no one really talked, except that keli and i had a little sth to say abt everything that has been going on right now. and pris complaining abt her foreverwontgeddit pokemon. lol. he's like seriously INTO her man.
GAMES DAY. it was tiring, but yet being able to play with the soccerettes again makes me happy. along the way, we met some gentlemen, and some not-so gentlemen, but heck. enjoyed ourselves. even beat some guys at floorball and for soccer, drew with the 0618 RED dudes.
got trashed at captains ball by the 0613 people, jackyeokelvinyongjin class. dammit la they were so freaking tall.
dodgeball - rolls eyes.

i'm tired. PW tmr. dammit.

it took me a really long time to geddit. but in the end, i guess i did. it doesnt really matter how someone did for the promos, good, average or plain bad. they all get lost sometimes. and i'll try my best to be there for them. in the course of it all, i get lost myself.

i dont have a purpose in life.
i dont have an ambition, or dream.
i'm just living life the way it is.
taking it one step at a time.
many of us do that, eh?
or i am just deceiving myself.
i didnt know what i wanted to do after the 'o's.
so i just chose to go to a jc.
thought it'd be fun.
well, fun has very different definitions for everyone la.

some people who have already found what they want and are happy with their lives in jc or poly.
some people want to quit jc, and go to a poly.
some want to quit poly, and go to a jc.
others are struggling , in search for the life they really want.
i guess i'm one of the 'others'.

DEATHNOTE was quite cool, but it only appeals to teenagers. the whole freaking cinema was filled with students in uniforms. sheri and i were the oldest ones in there. that felt really good. L is a freak who puts tons of sugar cubes in his coffee and uses a lollipop to stir it. and then rushed to get new boots at sportslink. the pink puma one didnt have my size, so i just got the nike one. felt quite numb alr. was late for trng, but coach wasnt mad, so yeah i was pretty surprised . was pretty stoned throughout trng, and had to correct my passes. only until the two sided game when i lost control of my emotions and pushed myself hard. was really tired after trng. so i just left.

GP B
MATH U
CHEM E
ECONS B
HIST S

two Bs, one E, one S, and one U.
these make up my efforts for promos.

was feeling pretty stoned this morining, until i decided to go online, and got reminded of what's gonna happen tmr. argh. and now i'm blogging with a heavy heart. talked to shikai last night, and he told me he would actually be happier if he retained. cos then, he can leave nanyang feeling more justified. i guess people would actually want to receive the bad news then the 'good' news? cos that would mean staying ard in this school isnt it? i dont know what i should expect. i want to promote, you know for the sake of promoting, but something inside me tells me that this JC thingy is just not for me. just pack your stuff la cheryldan, you should be somewhere else, not HERE. well tmr i will know. just gimme the news seq, good or bad. people will be crying tmr, i wonder whether i'd be one of them.
i dont want to see any of my friends crying.can still remember angelia crying when she got her 'o's results. 12 points! she was so happy, she cried. wonder why i didnt cry that day. hormone probs ba.i dont usually get affected by grades, but it's make or break. shall pray hard tonight for everyone.

i dont want to have any regrets in life.
unfortunately, i've already done too much of that.
it's so hard just to get myself to speak up, to say what i feel.
in the end, i say nothing at all,
and he or she doesnt even know.

nothing lasts forever;
it's true.

0601/0701/poly/a place i can run to and hide from the rest of the world.

it's saturday the fourteenth. and so, yesterday was friday the thirteenth. coincidentally, it was NANYANG OPEN HSE! surprisingly, truckloads of sec 4 and other crashers came. in drones of tens and twenties. is our school THAT appealing? anyway, saw loads of XINMIN juniors, some familiar ones. when i spoke to them, and told them i was from XINMIN too, they said YEAH WE KNOW! lol. taksheng and his friends dropped by too.
it was really hard getting girls to try our 50 second shootout challenge, cos most of them were quite freaked out by the idea of kicking balls. yupp, it was challenging. but some girls were quite game, i realise, and they can really shoot. and so, we kinda encouraged them to come to nanyang and join our team. haha. juniors are fun.
and then, it was nearing sunset hours, and we all watched the RUGBY friendly with SRJC. ruggers are manly. haha. and i was quite shocked to see kelvin play, cos i forgot he joined rugby. the number 17. and he can really run fast la. the soccerettes were like amazed at his godlike speed. woohoo. lol. cringed at how he was tossed ard by the SR ruggers. so small sized la. eunice said he bounced on the field. LOL. GO KELVIN!
hammie didnt drop by, so we played a lil street soccer, and then justina and i went back to my place to wash up. andthen we shared a cab with KELI and went to CITYLINK! :D met esther and melinda and had a lovely dinner at NEW YORK NEW YORK. very nice place. you could have free flow of cotton candy! :0 we celebrated justina's and my birthday tgt, and they gave me very nice presents! a new bag, and a scrapbk. the whole scrapbk was filled with my unglam pics and some heartfelt words from them. :D :D pictures later when i get them from justina.
monday's D-DAY and i feel like ponning school.

I COMPLAINED WHEN THERE WERENT HOLIDAYS.
AND NOW, I'MA BOUT TO COMPLAIN
MR SEQ!------(THAT'S HIM MAN!)------------->
WHY IS THERE NO SCHOOL?
I AM DAMN BORED CAN.
BAH!
NO LIFE.

it seems, i can never be satisfied. (dont think dirty)

SEQ IS ONE FUNNY GUY. lols. had PW meeting at EIGHT AM in sch, was damn sleepy at first. the four of us were sitting outside the staffroom, talking abt our WR then suddenly SEQ started talking abt obesity and then saying that HE COULD DO CARTWHEELS last time! lol. like o.o then he said he can only do forward and backward rolls now. hahah. then, without us saying, he HIMSELF started saying he can do rolls cos he's fat and thats why he can roll. lol. i am not kidding. then he said if we tied him up, he could roll down the hill or sth. HAHAHA. he's laughing at himself. goodness. anyway, we completed our WR in four hrs, by just sitting in the com lab and typing furiously away. hopefully, this PW cycle will be over soon, and then the cheena people can take their CHINESE 'A's and i can PARTAAYYEEEE! lol. dont smack me, i suffered under higher chinese alr. it's sweet revenge.
i think theres gna be SOCCER meeting tmr or on wed, to discuss abt THAT ISSUE. hope all goes well, dont wish fer any misunderstandings to happen. it all really boils down to our losing streak this yr. how long is this gonna continue? i really have no idea. i just want all of us to be happy, to go to trng with a smile on our faces. and not, sulks and frowns. this isnt what a beautiful game is supposed to be, right? aye, we'll see.
and so, after lunch at the KOPITIAM with jinyu, i got myself BBT and then came home to rest. poor jinyu's still got some unsettled WR with her grp. have a nice time with lianfei, though! haha. michael apparently responds to jinyu when she yells SHORTY. that is admirable. lol.
shall fall into a deep sleep ltr, and perhaps never wake up.

the FOUR of us, without KELI. i miss you KERR, come back soon! :)
THANK YOU ALL for the lovely well-wishes last night. josh harnett was on channel five last night! YES I'M SEVENTEEN! hahaha, have been waiting for too darn long alr, now that i'm seventeen, i feel kinda old. what is wrong with me. and the whole family got to enjoy fruit cake from sweet secrets this morning. it was really good. and it had one big candle, with seven small candles on it. as the candles grow in number each yr, my heart gets heavier. LOL. no la, i'll stay youthful and radiant. MUAHAHA. okaayy crap. what's with I-LEARNING day anyway. i know xinmin had E-LEARNING DAYfor a week or sth. basically, we all stayed at home and slacked. lol. like what i mentioned to justina and jinyu, i still stand by my no EC policy. it could be due to the male population in nanyang. and eye candies are quite meaningless, dont you think? but they could serve as motivation to go to sch. that helps alot. so yupp, everyone, please support the NO EC POLICY, and trust me, FRIENDS are all that you need in school.

lalala. JINYU and i are bored to death. LOL. okaaayyy we're going down to kick some balls now. STREET SOCCER here we come! :)
sheri's at VIVO CITY and she says the place is huge! shall go down myself to see it sometime.

"i am not afraid to fail;
because i know failure is part of football."
-jose mournino.

it's surreal. before you know it, it's over. you're done, with the BIGGEST obstacle this yr. i wasnt exactly thrilled, but it's better now, without all the cramming. day in, day out. is this the kind of life we want to pursue? i didnt have the energy to think anymore. so, i just tried to have a life. this past month has been a nightmare, i was just an emotionless soul trying to fit every set of lecture notes, every tutorial, every word the teacher said, into that brain of mine. i didnt have a
life. and so, after my hist paper, for the first time in ages, i caught a movie. I WATCHED A MOVIE! goodness. rob-b-hood made me laugh. i didnt get to hear my own laughter for a long long while. HURRAY SHERI WE HAVE A LIFE NOW! :D
after the nice show and all, met up with PRIS JINYU AND JUSTINA for PRAAATTTTAAA! prata mania. over the course of the meal, jinyu told me some shocking things that made me lose my appetite for a bit. well, the first thing i knew was that oliver had quitted school, and then the second was sth abt soccer. was in a state of shock, and then we talked abt stuff.

we all have to make some choices in life;
i guess it's time to make a choice now.


today's a FRIDAY,
and esther woke me up at 1430 this afternoon. if not for her phonecall, i think i could have slept on for a few more hrs. i'm a pig. well, they FORCED me to meet them in town, and being the ever-obliging me, I WENT! shopped ard, had a nice dinner at crystal jade, and then esther and justina came to my place to chill.

THE HAZE SCARED ME.
everywhere i went, i couldnt really see. it was terrible.
hope they'll declare a break from school or sth. school is not appealing to me at all.
I NEED SPACE.

jinyu wants to have a street soccer marathon, i'm totally in for it haha. any takers? :D

HISTORRRREEEEEEE.




gonna kick some balls;
enjoy a nice dinner;
catch a good movie;
and then go home and cry.

bird.

the early bird gets the worm. and that's me. i came to school today at 7 am, when i didnt even need to. looked like a criminal, cos i didnt want to go for morning assembly at the parade square. i mean, hello, i'll be standing alone for my class. so, being the hum me, i sneaked around the fourth level. hid in the loo for ten minutes. sang a little along to the national anthem haha. saw some latecomers sneaking in from the back gate. tsk. they're having their geog paper today. their LAST paper. it's unfair. why does everybody else end their papers on either tues or wed. while i have to kill myself with hist on thurs. and it's a three hr long AFTERNOON paper. and they kept going on abt partying after chem on wed. but i still feel okay, cos the H2 chinese people end on fri. lol.

some nonsensical words that justina and i sputtered-
moove(moon)
hitch a hike( hitch a ride)

lalala.
OPEN HOUSE on fri the 13th.

one big FAT mistake.
that was what it is.

ECONS was okaaayyy, but it always turns out pretty bad everytime i find it okay, so yep, keeping my fingers crossed for now. last two papers to go, it's now or never! have to bury myself in chem mcqs for these two nights and then burn my hist lect notes and drown myself with holy water.

like what justina said, i'm getting cranky.
oh i got my old number back alr, :D yaphooo! LOL.
and so i generously returned my sis her sim card.
if you msg that number, you'll probably get to chat with her. hahaha. dont even try.

by thursday, i'm gonna be a free woman.

econs.
econs.
econs.
ECONS.
i dont geddit at all.

mr bong.
whereareyou.
SAVE ME!

please answer my prayers.